My name is Rebecca and I was born with Spina Bifida. Doctors told my parents that I’d never be able to walk and that I’d be completely dependent on a wheelchair, for the rest of my life. They also made it clear to them that I would have a poor quality of life. I didn’t realize it for a long time, but our God is in the miracle-working business and it was by the His grace and His grace alone, that I was able to prove them wrong. I started walking by the age of 4 and at 22, I live an amazing, fulfilling life.
Growing up, I believed in God and knew who He was. I grew up in a Christian household, with Godly parents, but it was all surface level–just religion. I didn’t desire or care about having a real relationship with Him because I didn’t know God, the Father. I didn’t know my identity in Him and I couldn’t accept His unfailing love for me, as His daughter.
My physical disability, to be honest, made me feel worthless. I hated not being “normal”. I hated looking physically “broken”. It made me feel as if I were living a life that didn’t have any meaningful purpose, I just wanted it to end. That led to depression, low self-esteem, suicidal thoughts, anger, bitterness, etc.
I was so angry at God, because of how He “made” me. So, I ran from Him, I didn’t want anything to do with Him. He clearly didn’t love me. I didn’t even love myself, so how could God ever love me, anyway?? I have nothing to offer. That’s honestly what I thought. I constantly looked for validation from the world, but not from God. At one point, I wasn’t even sure I believed in God at all.
Today, at 22, I’m newly saved and have completely surrendered and given my life to Jesus Christ and am currently going to Bible school, to one day be in music ministry. He’s the love of my life and I know He had been chasing me for so long. I felt it, so strongly. So, I finally stopped running away. I threw my hands up and ran straight into His arms.
I realize now, that all along, God loved me. Even when I didn’t love Him and pushed Him away. Even when I didn’t see value in myself, He saw value in me. He saw value in me before He even created me. He chose to create me and breathe life into my lungs and because of that and His Word, I know He has a huge purpose for my life. A God-given assignment.
I couldn’t be more excited for what He’s going to do in my life and how we will partner up, to glorify Him and His Kingdom. I am thankful to serve such a loving, amazing God who has never given up on me. It’s never too late or too early, to give your life to Jesus. He loves you so much and is waiting for you, with open arms, to draw near to Him and receive all that He has for you, on Earth and in Heaven!
“As Jesus was walking along, he saw a man who had been blind from birth. “Rabbi,” his disciples asked him, “why was this man was born blind? Was it because of his own sins or his parents’ sins?” “It was not because of his sins or his parents’ sins,” Jesus answered. “This happened so the power of God could be seen in him.”
John 9:1-3 NLT