Hi my name is Whitney Ford and i’m 21 year old Black, Christian, Disabled, Woman and who is learning more and more each day to love herself. I’m not much on too many preferences in that I’ve never really been in a valid full on relationship. The thought gives me anxiety sometimes. That’s not to say I’m out here fly swatting cause I do not have ANY juice. I got me some infused water though. 😂😂
It’s my intention for this piece to appeal to those who share each of these characteristics and maybe we can make good sense together my fellow Interdependents. So chill back brethren. Get you some tea. Put your face mask on and have a heart to heart with yours truly. As you all know interdependents I like to talk about me cus I know about me.
I am pretty much not as experienced as some might be when it comes to the love shack so I “speak as a fool” *in my Apostle Paul voice * what ever that sounds like. ( if you didnt catch that see 2 Corinthians 11) but I’m not going too deep today. It’s just when i’m alone in my room sometimes I stare at the wall and imn the back of my mind I hear my conscious call 🎶 and I wonder if He is this or if he’s that and why don’t nobody want the kid 😂.
Listen to me and listen to me good girl. (Or dude) I’m a black girl and I want him to be a black man.. So he’ll be like me. He’ll understand things about me that are common in our culture. I want him to love the way I cook and my curls and to know the songs I sing at random. I love old school music. I want to love his brown skin🎶 and if I am a reflection of Him then I must be fly🎶 I wanna face the world with a face of faith hand in hand with a man who understands. You live in the same world I live in. You’ve seen the news. You’ve been praying for him like Im have been praying for him. They’re seven to one to us..
I Am A BLACK WOMAN
Obviously this Is a bonus. I am a heterosexual black woman. This is an extension of my last point. I am a black woman. I am the most educated group in the US. I am thick lips and curls. I am fashion foward. There is a system set up to keep me “bad” and from uniting with him but I refuse. I refuse to let the system turn myself and our children against him. I am for Him and I am for him. I love him. I will not loathe him because I love him too much. A three strand cord ia not easily broken. I refuse to give up on him. He’s got a bad taste in his mouth and so do I but I refuse to give in. He’s had no hand out but his hand has a long while been up. Will he refuse to give in until I take it in mine. All i want is to raise a good black man with another active in his life and a good black woman also to be a graceful example to her. I want to send them off to be fruitful and multiply. Soon after i want to sit on my front porch wirh him and sip fresh squeezed lemonade rocking in good Golden Corral rocking chairs .. A toast to us.. “We did that ” 🍻
.. I Am Disabled ..
Y’all tired of hearing bout SB yet? 😂 *pretends to care* I was born with Spina Bifida Myelomeningocele with Hydrocephalus and most guys I meet don’t know what the Hammer Time that is, and I have to explain it to the best of my ability to where they will understand. The Lord Jesus Christ sitting on the right hand of the Father knows how full well how tired I am of explaining it. Even after explaining something to a person you can’t give them first hand experience. So I wonder sometimes if He’ll be like me . will he have Spina Bifida too? I’ve never met a male with SB in person. That’s not to say they don’t exist cause they definitely do I just ain’t met em.
So needless to say that each guy I’ve ever had a feeling or two for did not have SB. The issue I always hit within myself was if He would love me for me. If he’d being a perfectly healthy able bodied man would feel like eventually I was just too much to live with. If He’d be overwhelmed with my anxiety and my chronic headaches and yearly check ups and my bladder issues and vacationing with children AND a wheelchair and catheterization and all that is SB and hydrocephalus. All of my life I have felt like a burden I am not about to feel that way in a marriage. So does he have SB? If he does he’ll understand but that doesn’t guarantee complete bliss. If he does that increases the chances of carrying a child with SB. That may not be horrible in that hey, mom and dad get it first hand. If he doesn’t that doesn’t guarantee the child won’t still have SB. If He doesn’t have SB will he be able to love me as an even weaker vessel than most without underestimating me altogether. Are you strong enough to be my man🎶
I considered it to be too stressful to even wonder but I wonder more everyday. I let crushes die because I wonder. One day he’ll wonder and as a result ask. I’m until then preparing for any of these possibilities and trusting God for His best. I pray you enjoyed reading this interdependents. Different vibe and yet still,
As I minister to you